God, Love, And New Directions


Who would have thought that two weeks could be such a long time? I honestly feel like it’s been months since I’ve written in this blog. After six hours a day of meditation, introspection, and contemplation, my thinking and attitudes have changed so much.

Needless to say, this is only the start of my journey. I’ll be in Rishikesh for at least another two or three months.

So, how to describe meditation? Well, at first it’s extremely difficult, and boring, and physically painful if you’re not especially flexible. After that, it is drug-like. It is pure emotion, and it rivals anything I’ve ever felt before. And remember, I have only scratched the surface of the joy that Vipanassa meditation can offer devout practitioners.

But of course, it’s more than just a high. Communion with God (a concept and entity I define very broadly) is ultimately the source of the highest level of wisdom that humankind can reach. Believe me, if my old self with my old perspectives heard this, he wouldn’t understand it either, so I fully expect 99% of my readers to dismiss this claim at first – but the truth is, the tools of reason and empirical observation are not nearly adequate, nor are they the most useful at our disposal.

I ended my first book with a chapter on finding purpose in life – you know, Purpose, Meaning, God. And when I wrote it, I wasn’t particularly hopeful. Well, so much for that. God is out there, God is inside you, and it is within our power to commune with him. I can only say this much, since I’m just at the start of my journey, but if you have ever followed a piece of advice from this site, follow this one: Start your search for God now, and search within. Don’t look to the sky, look to the heart. And yes, I know that most of you are going to think I sound like a huge tool right now. I don’t care.

Related to all of this, I have an announcement to make.

This blog is about to become very, very different from what it used to be.

In many ways, I tried to make this a positive space and I wrote a lot about how to improve your health, free yourself from the strict demands of a materialistic life, and so on. But it was also a source of much negativity. Skimming through my old articles, I almost feel like I’m reading something written by a stranger sometimes.

It took a lot of looking inward to realize it, but I’ve been holding a lot of anger, for a long time. This came out on this blog as negativity directed at things like feminism, progressivism, “hippies” (whatever those are), and the general direction the world is heading in.

Well, you know what? Forget about all of that. I don’t want to discuss whether the things I’ve written are accurate or not. Maybe some of them are. But the important thing is that they aren’t useful, and they aren’t good. It’s not something that can be explained rationally, but probably a good many of my readers are holding on to similar anger. Please, just try and let it go, learn how to forgive, learn how to love, and just try that perspective on like a new pair of shoes. See if it makes you happier, and see if it makes the world seem a little bit clearer to you.

I’m sorry if this feels like a betrayal, or a rapid change, or anything like that. But I have seen something that I cannot un-see, and even if I could, I would have no desire to.

So please, live a good and happy life, let go of whatever is holding you back, and open your mind to the possibility that God lives inside of you, he loves you, and he wants to be with you.

“If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.“ – Mother Theresa